Lord, I want to understand your ways

12 12 2011

“Cause me to understand the way of your precepts,  that I may meditate on your wonderful deeds. My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word” (Psalm 119:27-28)


The last few weeks have been some of the saddest times I may ever experience. In the midst of sorrow and of grief, when I need God the most, I have found it hard sometimes to turn to him, when I don’t know what to say, or where to start. When I cant even put to words how I feel. Am I angry with God? confused? sad? Can I see God’s goodness in the midst of sorrow? 

Reading in the Psalms, I have seen David experience many of these same feelings, God inflicts him with illness, he is constantly battling his enemies, he is publicly shamed, but yet he knows that there is something greater, something better than we can place our hope in. And God delivers us from these troubles. Some days it takes almost everything I have to try and stay positive, but if I can remember one thing I try to remember this: God is good and He will never leave me. He has not given up on me or run out of blessings. His ways are not mine, and though I want to understand, I may not. And that’s ok.

The Lord’s ways are truly not my ways, I would never have wished any of this, but the Lord has a purpose and a plan. He continues to work for the good of those who love him. Goodness is not happiness and it’s not always easy but it is what’s best for us. God is still sovereign, divine, Immanuel and His ways are greater. Each day, I put my hope in God alone, He is our sustainer, our ever-present help in time of need. And he loves us desperately. I will find my comfort in His everlasting love.


In His love,






One response

27 01 2012
Samuel Gage

Thanks for your post. I was encouraged by it. I was feeling a bit sad today and your words were a blessing. Truth makes free. 🙂

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